"It's the little thing that makes us happy"
I have been thinking a lot lately about stuffs and suddenly they appear in my mind. I know I have not been a very good daughter and sister in the family and I am so sorry. I feel guilty for not being able to spend time with my brothers cos I am always busy with dance and school. We have distant a bit and I really regret for not able to have the time for you two. We used to joke around each other and tease each other. I miss that. Because of my busy schedule, we hardly had any time to talk. Let alone, say hi to each other. I'm sorry for not being there for you guys when you needed me. Being the oldest sister means I have to protect you guys and I have failed. I promise that I will find time for you guys.
I have failed to make my parents proud. Have always disappoint them with my studies and attitude. They have gone through hell to support me and my brothers. Father always went home late from work just so he could provide enough money to support us and Mother taking care of my cousin's babies so that she could also provide extra money. I just feel so......hurt and sad at myself for doing horribly in life. I always ask myself if really can make it in life. Well, can i ? And that is where my family plays a part. They have been supporting me and going through all the trouble to support me. So why should i let them down? Even though they nag at me every single day, I still feel really blessed to have them, my family, to care about me. I am truly grateful. Blessed. They are my gift, the most wonderful gift from God. Thank you.